Forgive

It's a horrible thing I know I have done
It was just a blink and my joy is now gone
This hatred of me, it cuts deep inside
And the feelings of pain wash like the tide

Against the edge of my mind they break
I have to give in, my peace they take
To the rim of depression I have been driven
Sorrow wins over, and I know I'm unforgiven

Agony, a strike, a heartbeat away
I try to run, but I want to stay
You make me feel alone and forlorn
And I've felt this way since I was born

Serenity, it's lost, and crying lament
Coldhearted terror, it leaves me spent
I sit and I yell, I scream and I cry
And through it all I never know why

It's on me before I can know that it's there
It fits in its ruts, and leaves me aware
That no matter how much I might beg and plead
It listens to your words, your own need to feed

Render me useless, I know it's your desire
You know it's mine too, it's too much a fire
The embers linger inside when you've left
The coals will ignite, and I'm again bereft

Of all self-control, of all sense of right
It filters through me like a mist at night
Bend me, shake me, leave my dignity riven
I know I deserve it all, I remain unforgiven

Agony, a shriek, and I slowly sway
I lay and bleed, I know that I'll pay
You make me feel like my sanity's taken
And from this dream I cannot awaken

Over with now, or perhaps it is not
Laying here broken, my body to rot
Open these wounds once again to bleed
My hands are shaking, fulfill my need

My will, it lays broken, the horror's receding
These dark thoughts of mine, finally retreating
But come back it will, and again, til I die
Since the time of my birth.. unforgiven am I



Model : Jolene

NOTE 1 : No negative religeous things are meant here, its just an image and story, k?

NOTE 2 : This is a reshoot of an older work that fell to obscurity before it had a chance

NOTE 3 : This is, without doubt, my favorite thing I've ever done. Poem and image. Your feedback would be nice. Lovin better haha